Anger is often personified to bonfire which is uncontrollable ... impulsive ...that finally ends with sweetest taste of revenge. But not in my case. It’s acting like slow poison to me making me feel sudden suffocation at times and perspiring the whole of fluids in me. Every time I read his letter, some unknown feeling always gets inside me. It makes me some one else. I am just living the after life of Rahul. I became Rahul with his full rage in me and his burning vengeance .
But .... but .... what a horrible death he had . Never before I saw something like that. I still don’t understand why he cut his veins as if he was penalising and hugged me that day asking for some repentance.
My mother came to my room and said “Beta ... today we will meet Rahul’s mother . Jao ..thoda refresh hojav ..”.Rahul belongs to a highly traditional Brahmin family . According their custom , they should be left untouched for first 13 days after any death in their family.
When I saw his mother I was shocked . No expression of agony or pain. She looked as if she’s just completing her formality. I am really afraid of those kind of people with emotionless faces. When I was about to leave , she said to me “ Go to his room . There’s something left
for you son ...His life” she almost whispered.
I went to his room. It’s reflecting clearly visible emptiness. There’s no impression of Rahul at all. I opened his cupboard . “Kill him ... Kill him” it retorted. “That was written few months back “ Rahul’s mother explained. “See this” she pointed to Rahul’s study table.
“LOVE ME”, “I AM NOT A PSYCHO” , “SONY” written in different styles filled whole of the table. Underneath all this “MARRIAGES ARE MADE IN HEAVEN” was highlighted in brick red. It should be his blood . “ Know your friend” her eyes said more. She handed me Rahul’s personal diary . To my surprise, I found “SONY” written on it instead of his name .... everywhere .
It said nothing about his personal life. It said about his love.... his psychic love. It described her beauty ..completely. It described her daily activities. It described her hobbies. It described her every minute details. It also explained all the dreams Rahul had seen and how he thought of accomplishing them. “I will make it Happen” he ended every page with this . All it showed was mere madness ....
Then after few pages were left empty explaining nothing. Occasionally, he scolded the girl for not responding to him. Then this fury rose to that level where Rahul decided to take an extreme step. He attacked her boyfriend. She had become much more close to him than before. At this point developed hatred and grudge . “ LOVE ME”, “I AM NOT A PSYCHO” followed the remaining pages. After few weeks ...he killed her.
Rahul felt as if he relieved her and granted freedom to her. He concluded that it was SONY’s boyfriend who killed her, though indirectly. Rahul’s frenetic and frenzied mind didn’t stop there . He committed suicide just because he believed that “ MARRIAGES ARE MADE IN HEAVEN”.
I closed his diary and handed it to his mother. Now I have to clear my mind. I have to become normal.... have to forget this incident. But ..... I also decided to do one important thing. Not for Rahul, but for SONY ...I have to apologize SONY’s boyfriend though not letting him know why ...
P.S : You will find this interesting only if you had read " IT JUST HAPPENED".
