DREAMS INCOMPLETE

Everyone feel  that they are different. Everyone wants to be a leader. Everyone is a fighter and have this “Never Back Down” attitude in built in them. Everyone scores a special identity for themselves. I don’t know  what I am . I have nothing in common with any “everyone”. So, am I different ? Or am I a fighter or a leader with some itching attitude bothering me to search for a identity for myself ? I don’t know . I fucking don’t know about myself.

And, lately I found rhetoric reason for all this chaotic confusion and disturbing delusion. I may regularly repeat something or periodically pursue the same thing because I don’t dream .Or to put it in more simple words, when the whole world can live in two different worlds  (one real and other virtual ), I am devoid of one world completely ; which you may call the “Dream World” ( I can’t say that because I don’t know what it is ) .Did I make it complex ? I am helpless!!

Thanks to Abdul Kalam for his words . “Dream Is Not That What You See In Sleep..Dream Is The Thing Which Does Not Allow You To Sleep”. And Sigmund Freud I almost forgot you .. "Dreams are the royal road to the unconscious". You people make my life really complex . And a big WOOOW to “Inception” for your concept – “the planting of an idea into the mind of someone through dreams” . And dream inside a dream ? Christopher Nolan .. You really screwed my mind .I can’t dream about my dream gal , dream job or dream ‘dream’ (that dream which you always want to dream about ).How did you dream about a dream inside a dream .Insane !!

Some say dreams improve creativity . Sorry! Then you are confusing between imagination and mere ‘dreaming’ then. Some enthusiasts even cite the example of Einstein . It was believed that he contrived his dreams to be focused on his research work and by the time he woke up, he came up with astonishing results .My friends, then you are falling in the same pitfall again . Creativity comes with imagination and not with dreams .

I have one more logical premise to prove that nobody really dreams but just pretend to do so . Since the distance between both the real and virtual world is same, whether you travel from real to virtual or from virtual to real , the time taken should be the same (unless some influencing factors like sleeping pills and drugs are consumed).But one takes more time to reach ‘virtuality’ than that of ‘reality’.

Actually not dreaming about something helped me to realize all the things in reality itself. After all I am not in the confusion between dream and imagination. Since I don’t have any pre-conceived idea about anything ,tomorrow I may save myself  from being disappointed . Thanks God! You make me feel so different  (Am I different ?)

ఎందుకిలా అవుతోంది?

మనో స్థైర్యం స్తంభించింది
ఆత్మ విశ్వాసం ఊగిసలాడింది
నేను నేనుగా లేననిపించింది
చనిపోతానేమోనని  అనిపించింది .

భూమి బద్దలైనదా ?
లేక ప్రళయం నర్తించుచున్నదా ?
నాతో నేనే పోరాడనా ?
ఈ గోషను మరణిస్తూనే జీవించనా ?

అవధులు దాటినా ఆవేశం
తికమక పెట్టే ఆక్రోశం
ఏమి చేయలేని ఒంటరితనం
ఈ "చెవి పోటు"కు లేదా ఉపసమనం ?  

LETTER TO HEAVEN

WHO IS THERE TO WIPE MY TEAR ?

WHO IS THERE TO HEAR MY PRAYER ?

WHO WAS THERE TO HELP YOU ‘DEAR’ ?

WHO WAS THERE TO STOP ‘THE HORROR’ ?

THROUGH MEMORIES YOU CALL ME

FADING SUDDENLY,YOU ALWAYS TEASE ME

ALONE YOU LEFT ME

CARING NOTHING FOR ME .

GASES THEY RELEASED

FLYING YOU INTO ASHES

CULPRITS THEY RELEASED

LEAVING EVERYTHING TO ASHES .

“JUSTICE WILL BE DONE”,THEY YELLED

I’M SORRY, I AM TOO BLIND TO SEE

“COMPENSATION WILL BE GIVEN”,THEY ANNOUNCED

PITY ME, I AM TOO OLD TO WAIT ANYMORE .

“NEGLIGENCE – THE DEMON”, THEY CRIED

HOWLING THE FATAL DEATHSPELL

THEY NOT ONLY ROBBED MY LIFE

BUT ALSO THE GENERATIONS THAT FOLLOWED .

HANDICAPPED POLITICIANS,THEY SELL MY COUNTRY

F’LAW’ED COURTS,THEY CORRUPT MY COUNTRY

NAÏVE DOCTORS,THEY DISEASE MY COUNTRY

BLOODY CORPORATES,THEY RULE MY COUNTRY .

ILL BEHAVED

PEEVISH LOOKS AND PATHETIC ACTS

RIDICULOUS SMILES AND RUTHLESS SOULS

ALTOGETHER YOU ALL ARE “ILL BEHAVED”

OUR SECTION GALS RENOUNCED .

NEITHER YOU VALUE OUR FEELINGS

NOR YOU CAN EVER UNDERSTAND US

YOU ROUGH FACES

ALWAYS BRIM EXTREME RASHNESS .

FORGET THE GET-TOGETHER

FIRST CORRECT YOUR BEHAVIOUR

WE ARE ALWAYS OPEN FOR “UNITY”

DECLARED THE GIRL COMMUNITY .

‘CHECK YOUSELF FIRST’

ALL ECHOED WITH ONE VOICE

SHOW SOME ACT OF CLASS

DEMANDED THE GUYS .

NEVER YOU SUPPORT OUR MASS BUNKS

NEVER YOU POSTPONE THE LABS

ALWAYS TRYING TO BE EXTRA SINCERE

FROM WHERE DID “UNITY” INTERFERE ?

NEITHER YOU CAN BEAT US IN INTELLIGENCE

NOR YOU CAN CHALLENGE OUR CREATIVENESS

WHICH ‘FACE VALUE’ ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ?

WHOSE CHARACTER ARE YOU QUESTIONING ABOUT ?

WE INVITE YOU TO THE PARTIES

BUT YOU POINT OUR HAUGHTINESS

WE REQUEST YOU TO BUILD UNITY

AND YOU SHAME US FOR OUR DIGNITY .

WITH HARDLY ANY TIME LEFT TO LIVE OUR COLLEGE LIFE

THERE’S NO NEED FOR THIS HUE AND CRY

LET’S SHOW THAT WE ARE THE BEST

WHETHER WE FIGHT OR WE PARTY .

IF THERE WOULD BE A ‘REUNION’ EVER

NEITHER YOU COME NOR I

SO, LET’S ENJOY THESE 'HAPPY DAYS'

WITH PURE HEARTS TO THE FULLEST

Cho Chweet Proposal !

“Love is two hearts beating as one”, “Love is that which touches you once and lasts forever”, “Love is like a war, easy to start and difficult to end” (Bullshit! Love is a war ?? ), “Love is …..”There goes the endless list. Every Idiot having this nausea starts narrating quotations as if he had seen the whole depth of love . Who knows love better than me ? Who knows how difficult it is to LOVE a girl (I mean ,love is LOVE only if even girl LOVES you).
Rose day,Proposal day,chocolate day, Teddy day, Promise day, Hug day, Kiss day . Each day , I had seen my friends updating their status stating “Committed” . But my Big day is tomorrow “The Valentine’s Day”. Here I would like to give you recap of what happened exactly one year back ….
PAST:

It was near our institute canteen. I was waiting for her (as usual) but this time very anxiously . I could hear my friends cracking jokes on me (Yah! Those losers).Though little tensed , I know what to do . There she comes with those eager eyes and lovely lips . I started conversation quite casually.
Me: Hey …Hi Geetha… You are looking gorgeous today ..(Some people call it buttering .. Others call it icing .. But I call I call it “Boosting”. Yah! You know …you have to boost the confidence levels of gals every time !)
Geetha : Thank You Arjun … Actually Black suits me .
Me : (Ghanta mera .. Black suits to everybody).Added to that your kajal ..Hmm… You are looking sexy
Geetha : (Sweet smile )
Me : Today I want to propose a gal .You see .. I was talking to this girl all day and night these days . She looks “OK” type and all … You know what ? I think even she loves me . ( Guys often use “ You know what ?”, “You see ..” things quite often their GF’s ..Notice carefully)
Geetha : ( Pretending as if she is amused to listen to all these ) Really .. Kya baat he .. Who is She ? (Raising her eyebrow)
Me : (WTF? Am I not talking to You all these days ?) She is with me now .. Guess Who ? ( Lamest proposal I guess)
Geetha : ( She looked all the sides .. She was about to say something)
Me : It’s You !!!
(My stupid friends started walking towards us )
Geetha : Hey … I will call you later OK ..
Me : No .. I want to know the answer now
Geetha : Hey .. Come on .. I will call you @ night …
Me : Plzzz Tell me YES/NO … that’s it . ( I cursed myself some million times for this . Dudes …. Never do this )
Geetha : “ Obviously” NO
Me : ( Stupid smile I gave to her ) OK ! Bye .

Her absence for next few days drove me crazy . Only then I decided what not to do . “Never use Brains to win Hearts”. I should flood her with immense love and drown her completely into my heart. Though our initial meets were bit rough , we moved on normally after that .I made her feel the real tinge of love. And one year passed very quickly ….
PRESENT :

Only this time did I realized that apart from Valentine’s Day there are lot many other occasions where I can show my love to Geetha . Starting from 7th Feb to 14th Feb everyday is a special day. Each day I gave her a gift and left one message with it .

ROSE DAY:
Gift : A Red Rose (with one thorn left intentionally)
Message : Oh my Red Rose..
Till the day my love LOVES you..
Till the day your beauty makes my love happy ..
Everyday Wish her a HAPPY ROSE DAY.

PROPOSAL DAY :
Gift : A greeting Card ( Showing a Guy proposing a Gal )
Message : If my life is more colourful than before
If my world is more eventful than ever
And If I could be happier forever
The reason is YOU ... HAPPY PROPOSAL DAY.

CHOCOLATE DAY :
Gift : Cadbury chocolate ( Kuch Meeta hojaye )
Message : Every bite melting in her mouth
Share my love along with your sweetness
Making her ask for more
Fill CHOCOLATE DAY with complete SWEETness.

TEDDY DAY :
Gift : A medium sized Teddy ( Teddies are costly)
Message : Entertaining you during the times of boredom
With a cheerful smile always on its face
Taking all your kisses and Hugs
It wishes you every time “ HAPPY TEDDY DAY ” .

PROMISE DAY :
Gift : ????
After all she fell ill. I came to know about this after ‘Intime’ (Time after which gals are not allowed to come out of their Hostels). I took the risk. I bribed as many as possible and finally reached her with one fracture, bruises on my hands and legs and a dog bite. Still .. I didn’t feel any pain. I took her hands into mine and whispered “ As long as I am with you , nothing will happen to you ,.. This is my PROMISE ”.

HUG DAY : Nothing happened . But she recovered (almost) from her ill health. I am happy for that .

KISS DAY : I was busy doing something in LAB working on ... I don’t remember. She called me and asked to come to canteen immediately . I somehow escaped from LAB and reached canteen.
She gave me a hug and Kissed me . “ HAPPY HUG DAY AND KISS DAY ” She said. No words from my side ( Flat ...)
And now no plans for tomorrow .. I am gonna put my heart straight to her. This time I don’t want to do anything fancy. No poetry ...No gifts ..Only three words to connect our two hearts and make us one pair . I LOVE YOU .

BROKEN SKY

I LOOK AT THE SKY
IT SHOWED MY REFLECTION
FREE AND FIERCE
AND YET,READY TO FALL



IT IS STARING AT ME
CONTINOUSLY QUESTIONING ME “HOW DO I LOOK?”
IT IS MOCKING ME
“EVEN I AM BROKEN” IT REMINDS ME



IT IS CONSPIRING ME NOW
KILLING ME COMPLETELY
IT IS PLAYING WITH ME
“THERE’S NO CHOICE” CONFESSING TO ME



OUT OF THE BLUE ,A GUST OF WIND
AND A LITTLE PUSH FROM SUN
IT IS SMIRKING AT ME NOW
ASKING ME TO LOOK AT IT .....AGAIN



IT IS SHINING FOR ME
SHOWING THE BRIGHT FUTURE
IT IS INSPIRING ME
SAYING “YOU ARE THE SUN FOR ME”



MY HEART ASSURES ME NOW
“YOU ARE NOT BROKEN,NOR I”
MY FUTURE FORTELLS ME
“YOU WILL MAKE ME SMILE FOREVER”